Wanting to feel this kind of happiness, ASAP!!

I've been MIA for a while now since life happened. You know, life... So anyway, I don't know if it's my hormones talking but I feel bad about how my life's going on lately. I feel stressed with simple things that should not bother me. I feel sad knowing that there are issues I cannot solve, and are getting worse than I expected.
Every morning I tell myself that my day should be good. But this time, even how many times I tell myself to 'have a good day', I always fail. So today, I promised myself that OCTOBER 14 BETTER BE NOT LIKE THE OTHERS. I decided to try to see the good in everything; and that I'll try to solve all these issues I'm going through. Let me go through my so-called 'issues'

Being catcalled.

The bad: Catcalling is an act of whistling/ shouting/ or commenting of a sexual nature to a woman (or maybe men) passing by. This happens to me a lot. Not that I'm proud of it; I actually hate these instances. Whenever I'm getting catcalled, I don't actually feel good of myself but rather scared. Praises, greetings or whistles (that you know have other and deeper intentions) like these are actually not flattering. It makes me be conscious of how I look like, do I look like a whore? is my skirt to short? do my pants look fitted? is my bra showing? And it feels bad. It's also scary because what if he drags me somewhere? is he a rapist? they're so mean. And I can't even easily share it to anyone because obviously they're just going to make a joke out of it "wow, ikinaganda mo yan!"
The good: I can now share these issues with my friends because it's an impending concern; they too are experiencing it!! (not really a good thing tho, hehe) There are also a lot of rants and posts in the social media about this issue. I'm glad that finally someone spoke up about this matter. I can now also confide this to my brothers and tell them they should not do it to other girls, too. Think they listened to me! So a while ago, on my way to the office, when my usual cat-callers 'meow-ed', I just thought that at least, someone's wishing me a good day by saying "Hi ganda, ingat ka ha" and "Good morning, Ms. Ganda, kelan mo ba ako papansinin?"

On a lighter note,  check THIS funny video from Buzzfeed. HAHA

Unexpected trial.

The bad: Last month, my uncle had stroke and was on a critical condition. He was admitted in the ICU for more than a week, undergone brain surgery because 70% of his brain's already covered with blood clot, and majority of the clot was not removed during the operation due to some complications. His ability to speak and walk was affected, and the right part of his body cannot function and feel. We're also bombarded with almost a million on hospital fees. This, by far, is the most challenging thing that happened to our family after the death of my father in 2008.
The good: God really provides. We were so lucky that we have the resources to pay for the bills, however this affected a huge chunk of the whole family's savings. But then again, my lola always tells us that money can be easily earned with hardwork but the life of our tito isn't. Also, this trial brought our families closer than ever. My Tito's already out of the hospital since last week, and we're taking turns on watching over him. He's quickly recovering as per his therapist, and we can see that he's really working hard for his immediate recovery. With continued prayers and therapy, he'll be regaining his strength and abilities in due time!

Friendships and conflicts.

The bad: I've been enduring these 'friendship issues' for quite some time now. I tried to be neutral, to not choose sides, but it's really hard when you know both sides of the story. You see both their rights and wrongs, and it's quite harder to manage. You really can see a person's true identity when you're all faced with certain circumstances. And I feel bad that now, tho I tried not to have my bias, I'm getting distant from my middle position, from my uncommitted judgment. I want to regain my stand, to not choose sides, but it's hard when you really can't see the other's point. And I'm the type of person who's usually ignorant of other people's issues. I often don't interfere as long as I'm not involved, especially if it will just cause bigger trouble. But this matter is really really concerning. I don't want to be in a place where there are factions and a lot of backstabbing.
The good: I'm starting to unwelcome all the gossips that I'm hearing. I'm rejecting the intriguing stories, which may all be true, but will just cause me another dismay. I'm also planning on talking to this 'other party' so as to end this ridiculous war. I hope I can do this within the week and may we both have open minds!

These issues may not be a biggie for others, but for someone like me who's emotionally weak (chos) I'm really losing a peaceful sleep (and for others who personally know me, they know how I love to sleep HAHA); maybe that's why God's not granting me a boyfriend yet because He thinks I still cannot manage the pain. HAHAHA So anyway, if you're reading this, please have a good day! Because good days are rare as you 'adult' :( :)